How the Internet has Affected Me
I started getting into the internet when I was about 12.
I’ve discovered many drawing tutorials and new drawing styles. I started out doing free commissions of people’s avatars on GaiaOnline. I eventually got a drawing tablet and started drawing on Sketchfu.com and gained a pretty large following, and even made a few friends I’m still in touch with. On my dad’s suggestion, I got a Fiverr account and began doing $5 portrait commissions of people. Eventually I discovered Society6 through other artists on Tumblr and am selling prints of close-up photos of my glassblowing pieces and will be selling prints of my artwork once I have the time to make non-fandom artwork for it.
I went to Catholic school all my life, and by the point I got a Tumblr, I was a junior at a Catholic high school. I had accepted everything I had learned about abortion being terrible and homosexuality being a sin. Through Tumblr though, my views were expanded and by the time I was a senior in high school I’m more pro-choice and after a lot of thinking, I realized I was bisexual/pansexual (I use bisexual because it’s a more common term and I won’t have to explain it so much if I actually come out to my parents).
For a while because of Tumblr, I became a feminist. Not a really active one, just starting to realize some dumb things about expectations of women. But not long after, I started to realize that lots of the things that Tumblr feminists were saying about men (they’re rapists, only want sex, objectify women, and are entitled pieces of shit when they just mention the friendzone to describe a relationship with a woman even if they’re just a bit sad about having unrequited feelings for her, among other things) were just stupid and not as “equal” as the feminists claimed it to be. So now, I’m a gender egalitarian and better at seeing issues from more than one point of view.
I’ve seen many people’s stories of their painful lives and horrible things that have happened to them… I used to think my life was bad. I was terribly lonely a lot of the time and was probably depressed (although I was never officially diagnosed with depression, because I would never admit to anyone that suicide had crossed my mind even once, let alone countless times). I’m much happier now and can look back at my life and although I really didn’t have many close friends, I had a decent quality of life otherwise. I had never gone hungry and had never really been bullied in elementary school. I was bullied a bit in junior high and high school by a couple girls, but not horribly.
Finding other people that deal with the same things I do (some depression, ADHD, social anxiety, etc) and have things in common with me (bisexuality/being queer, liking the same fandoms, similar political views, etc) is really awesome and great support for me to keep those views. It’s even better when these people point out flaws in my reasoning or new things I hadn’t considered and help me refine my views and make be better as a person.
For those college classes that are really hard, help sites and Yahoo answers are awesome and help me figure out how to do the problems and have really saved me when it comes to Calculus 2 and Engineering Physics.
The internet has had some negative effects on my life as well. I’m supposed to be studying for finals right now but I keep doing things on the internet (like writing this :P). It is definitely not helping my ADHD. I’ve also gotten used to casually cursing a lot and have been swearing on impulse and I used to be good at not swearing in front of my family but not anymore, apparently…
But all in all, I have become a far better person because of the internet and have gained business experience with selling my art that will help me in the future. (It’s also an endless source of entertainment for boring breaks and helps keep me from going crazy when no one’s around!)
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